Back in KL, I remembered AYO said to me to chant more to encounter "xin chi sik" and also not to blame this Buddhism should anything bad happens to me. Right there and then, I knew that I had to take responsibility for my own life. I had to make decisive decisions with wisdom while considering various factors within my life. So I made a decision to re-start my daimoku and to do everything with faith.
Yesterday, I had a good opportunity to encounter "xin chi sik". Initially I was planning to chant for an hour a day starting from the first day in HK and was going to start yesterday. Came afternoon, my dad received a call from Diana proposing to chant for two hours before Chant&Chat starts. Btw, Chant&Chat is similar to chanting meet back in KL. And there will also be another hour of chanting in C&C meet. I thought to myself, wow, 3 hours of daimoku altogether and can I do that? I said to my dad I'm going to challenge 3 hours (my first time in my life). I was determined to change myself from within through faith and survived through the chanting session. I felt incredibly good after that. During the chanting, I was doing a mental check of my own weaknesses, apologizing to Gohonzon and making new resolutions.
This morning, I received a good news from Monash Uni. My official transcript is finally out and I wasn't expecting it to be out so quick. I immediately felt that this must be arrangement from the Gohonzon. With the transcript, I can start my job-hunting even sooner now. At the same time, I told myself not to be complacent with such incident as it could be a devil in disguise to test my faith. This incident could appear as to make me feel complacent when things are smooth.
As Shin Yatomi said during OYPC 2006, chant with spirit of gratitude during good times and challenging spirit during bad times, this way, we will be able to keep chanting NMHRGK no matter what. Now that Shin is not with us anymore, I'm sure that my daimoku will always be with him.